more thoughts

I've been thinking.....

I fear that I am slowly losing my idealism. I can't help but see the shitty things going. I know it happens to everyone to some degree and I'm not suffering some original crisis that needs a new name, but the world has gone and gotten itself crazier. It's not just me either. Everyone I talk to has been down lately. I can't figure it out and maybe I'm just thinking too much but it's just bothering me a lot lately. How does one keep from getting bitter and cynical, because that is the last thing I want to be. I've seen too many people my age become this way and it makes me so sad. But maybe that's what humor is for? To get us through these ridiculous times. Does all humor come from sadness or anxiety?

I can't wait for summer.

H.